I am a D.C. boy through it all. I hung out with my old guitar teacher this afternoon, and we walked 25 blocks around the city, and I told my boss at work that I am trans, and she was really cool with it, and I chilled with Shannon and Ruthie for a couple of hours tonight. Everything is grand & whole again, and I am getting my T letter next week, and I am in such a good place, and I am loving life and living the dream.
I am a positive person but I get really tired of aggressive optimism. If someone’s sad, let them be sad. All emotions have purpose. Sadness isn’t destructive if not prolonged. Sadness isn’t unproductive, as it offers awareness. Telling someone to “cheer up” or “be happy” is so ineffective and patronizing. The last thing a sad person needs is for someone to judge their feelings as pointless and unappealing. Welcome sadness, just don’t let it consume you.
i’ve made a set of rules for myself to never date:
- any cis person who doesn’t already know a decent amount about trans stuff
- anyone who misgenders me at any point, for any reason, other than a complete accident or in otherwise unsafe situations
- anyone who asks about my birthname out of curiosity
because i deserve better than that and you do too
there’s something tragic about you,
something so magic about you,
don’t you agree?
on my way back from amman the sun never set / it was as if the light wanted to lead me home, back to here, where everything is good & whole again / i have been through the ringer two times in my life and i am stronger because of it / and beneath this earth sleeps thousands of unmade beds, breathing in mantle, melting away into a matter that only exists in memory of the alive / summer is so strange because this is the season where i loved you and fell out of it with you and found myself but i am grateful for it all and for when love / will touch me again and say, “this is it. this is all you will need in this life.” / no separation between you & the background, i want it all / i want to embrace every hard, good, honest thing in this life / and i will / but for now i must rest and let the distant waves lull me towards slumber